The Cycle

Writhing, Burning
Twisting, Turning
Needing, Craving
Redemtion, Saving

Feeling, Tasting
Never Wasting
Longing, Yearning
Forever Learning

Acting, Playing
Confidence Slaying
Crushing, Aching
Never Changing

Screaming, Crying
Feels like Dying
Hurting, Feeling
Begin the Healing

Slowly Smiling
Meeting, Trying
Forgetting the pain
To start over again.

Because I Want To!

So I find myself out of work, no where left within a 100-mile radius to apply or send in my resume. So how do I spend my time? After cleaning the cracks in the bathroom tile with my toothbrush and cutting the lawn with my desk scissors? Why, I create a blog, of course. I can vent my broke-as-hell, about-to-lose-my-mind frustrations on the poor unsuspecting readers. You'd think it wouldn't be so damn difficult to find gainful employment. I am an intelligent woman, with a stable enough work history, more than 5 years experience in my field. And yet, no one is biting. I am getting responses letting me know that my resume is anywhere from 'very impressive' to 'decent enough,' and telling me that I should have no problem finding something, but the position they were offering 'has been filled,' or is 'not quite right for my qualifications.'

So my days now: Wake up, scour the classifieds, craigslist, and jobsites where my resume is already listed. Get the kids off to school. Come home and make sure there are no new listings in the last hour since I was online. Try to find anything else in the house that needs to be done, blades of grass higher than the others. Wash the 5 dirty outfits worn the previous day. Then I begin calling every place that I have submitted my resume or application. Sigh. What a life.